Oh.

Oh.

 It is unfair -

 - That songs sing about you now.
- That tears fall for you now.
- That everything else is gone now, erased now.

 - That I belong to you now
  Beyond question, beyond self.
  Beyond help.

 - That you don't need me.
  Nor want me.

 - That you're probably keeping me
  Because you had me for free.

 - That dreams twist around you now
  Darkness forms itself into you now.

 - That I'd move worlds for you now:
  But, it's so comical, this fact that you don't need me to.

 Pain

 - Is knowing wrong is not always wrong,
  And right not always right.

 - Is my dissolution into you
  And my recrystallisation into heartbreak.

 - Is realising futility,
  But choosing to ignore it.

 - Is flinging self into fire,
  Knowing full well it burns.

 - Is breaking faith
  Where I never dreamed I would.

 - Is dancing between bad and worse.

 - Is truth, is strength, is powerlessness.

 - Is looking at you.
  Seeing my world
  One last time,
  And letting go.

 ~ACM
(Original 13 Apr 2019 rev. 03 March 2020)


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