Birthdays :)

In a little more than half an hour, it will be my 21st birthday. If I stop to think about it, I feel practically ancient. I remember hankering to be 11. Where did the past ten years go?? Passed like a long freight train (loud when it's near, faint memory once it's out of sight).

What a struggle it was to get through the last two years of school. Now, I'm facing the last year of college. Feel like clinging on to Today and refusing to let go. Who wants to willingly inherit Grown-up-land? Especially, being a girl, I sense huge, huge, hidden obstacles looming in the waters ahead. Sigh. Growing up is a pain. I really, really wish I could stay a kid. I'm not ready to be responsible...! 

The people I grew up and played with, my brothers and sisters, my classmates, my friends- they're all growing up, hither-thither. Some of them are already husbands and wives, Mommies and Daddies. * Shudder * Not to sneer at the holy state of matrimony, or the heart-rending joy that is parenthood, but, but, BUT I prefer cowering behind a facade of childishness. For now, at least. 

Good grief. Freaking out. Happy birthday to me.

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Hari said…
Cowering behind the facade will only make the latter look large. Acquire powers of IR vision and look beyond it. :)

'Cause after all, life's like a box of chocolates. :D
April 9, 2010 at 5:52 AM
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